the brotherhood
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
Okay so I haven't blogged in awhile. Anyway turns out I'm not selected for RLP but I've pretty much gotten over it, i mean my ultimate goal is to one day make it into the national team and if i'm not captain anymore but i'm still able to do that then fine and well. i guess it's a shock to me 'cos the effort I put in into polo is a hell lot compared to the effort I put in for any other thing. I train 7 times a week and that's during the school term. Aye, I just hope i can meet my goals luh.
Second off, I think i'm becoming too buggish towards some so I better stop.
Third off, i think it's getting harder and harder to cope, there's so much going on and the pressure is super mounting. a gpa of 3.7 is something super difficult to get for me and though curently i've managed to pull it up from a 2.98 to 3.3+, it seems to be still a long way to go. But if I do extremely well for all the CTs coming up then it won't be so bad.
hmm i guess sometimes you put in so much effort but when it doesn't pay off it results in shit. and shit sucks. polo, studies, ------, all these things/people, tons of effort put into it but it all comes to zilch, and i hate it.
sorry if this seems so emo and stuff but i don't know man i've been really angsty lately and being nice to everyone is starting to become a challenge.
let's just hope this is over and done with soon.
