the brotherhood
Saturday, October 24, 2009
I'm constantly puzzled by the effort I put into things. I know I've mentioned it before, but reality strikes me again.I put in the effort only for it to be shunned, I'm nice only to get my kindness taken for granted.
Let me put things straight and lay my cards on my table.
I am no pushover.
I say I understand but there's a limit to how much nonsense I can tolerate.
I say I'm fine but sometimes I'm not.
I say "it's okay" when sometimes it's far from okay.
The saying goes "Give without expecting anything in return"; but let me say just this. There's always a limit for everyone and everything. Please. Don't take advantage of me, I don't want things to turn out the way they did before.
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
I think back and I realize that the way we began to knew each other was kinda random, and more or less a stroke of luck (no I'm not talking about my relationship anymore, I've moved on).
To me. you are sorta a Godsend? I don't know but strangely enough I feel that, maybe I'm beginning to like you.
It is so not appropriate for me to be thinking about all this at this time but, I can't control it. Having gone through one serious relationship in the past, I daresay I know what it feels like when I genuinely "like" someone.
I met you a few months back and we met in person, about a couple of months later, of course not just us two that would be weird.
I looked at you, and suddenly I felt this strange feeling of attraction and guilt, because I knew I shouldn't fuck myself up over realtionships again. But as I said, I just can't help it. Furthermore, it doesn't help that a good friend likes the same girl, and he knew her way way earlier than me so I'm feeling kinda screwed up right now. Rather bitchy y'know?
As time goes on, I realize that barely a day goes by without me talking to you and when we don't there's this empty space like in my mind just waiting to be filled. So, screw MSN, I pick up my phone and send you a text and as usual, your reply is ever so prompt, and friendly to boot.
We've been growing alot closer in the short time we've known each other. But I am so scared that this will turn out just as before, we developed "trust" then bam, reality gives you a cold slap in the face.
You don't know but whenever I feel down, when I talk to you, I cheer up for 2 reasons. 1. Cos I'm talking to you and 2. Because adding two negatives together never make a positive. I can throw chairs in class in the morning, shout fuck at classmates point the finger at teachers but when it comes to nightfall, I never stop smiling when I talk to you because, that's what I have to do.
Perhaps it is all this that I do that gives me so much of your trust. Well, you have to trust me one more time when I say I will never betray your trust and I'll never let it go.
I like you so much and the things which you do seem to show it to but as I said in my previous post, it's probably wishful thinking on my part, I must be hallucinating.
Because out of all the guys in the world if you choose Daryl Cheng, you're kinda stupid.
Friday, October 9, 2009
Amazed - Lonestar
Everytime our eyes meet
This feeling inside me
Is almost more than I can take
Baby when you touch me
I can feel how much you love me
And it just blows me away
I've never been this close to anyone or anything
I can hear your thoughts
I can see your dreams
I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you, it just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life with you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you
The smell of your skin
The taste of your kiss
The way you whisper in the dark
Your hair all around me, baby you surround me
You touch every place in my heart
Oh, it feels like the first time everytime
I wanna spend the whole night in your eyes
I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you, it just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life with you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you
Every little thing that you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life with you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Oh, every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you
I hope you know I Iove you, but then again it's just wishful thinking on my part.
