the brotherhood
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Well, today's the 31st. Nothing's been done yet. Should I make the first move?
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Dust was settling and memories were fading, but everything that shows how two hearts intertwine and care for each other never fail to trigger the emotions again. I look back at what was, and I remember the times we shared and the time my heart was shattered. I don't blame you for it, because it was my fault for being such an annoying kid. I can't help but feel jealous of others, knowing that I once had something this special but I just let it slip by. Thank you for supporting me, still throughout this soon to be one year. I tried my best, I really did. I'm sorry for having wasted your time. 31/5/08. Saturday. 5.30pm to 6.30pm. When I"m with you by Faber Drive. The details are still etched into the corner of my mind. I can't change it.
Sunday, May 24, 2009
Hi people. You know recently training has been super tough and super tiring but I think all this will eventually pay off next year when it comes to B div '10 and damn right I'm looking forward to it. Anyway Edward is now FREEKIN RICKED OR HOWEVER YOU SPELL IT. BULGING MUSCLES HOT DAMN. Anyway, *ahem*, I learned how to play Dear Maria, count me in (like finally), and High school never ends. Sweet to play and fantastic sounding. Going on, yesterday was open house. It was quite boring at first cos we were all just standing around no one was coming and stuff. After awhile though, people started coming and we didn't know how to attract them and shit. I just talked to them like randomly so as to stop them and I felt that I was being so irritating but I had no choice cos D'cruz scolded me -.- But we got a few interested names down and that was good so yeah. But the fun part was the polo match we played, definitely the highlight of the day. We did some super stupid shit like kissing the ball before every move I swear it was SO RETARDED BUT WORTH IT. Holy shit, this is just some massive word spam and I'm just randomly thinking stuff as I type this out. Anyway, after which had catheicism, super pissed becaues I rushed from open house down to church thinking today was the lunch until some joke told us "oh actually today isnt the last lesson", so we had normal BORING lessons and I swear I was bored out of my pants. People, I have 5 tests this week, 3 tomorrow, thanks I'm gonna fail. WHOOZA.
Monday, May 18, 2009
Omg seriously you tried to make amends but now you're still the same what's wrong with you. Really I think i'm starting to hate you and it's so ironic cos at the same time I was beginning to love you again.
I
loved you
Today has been such a mix of emotions today. Started off with chem - 23/30. yeah i'm happy but i made a careless which cost me my 4.0
Math - 20.5/30
WHAT THE **** I thought I would get 25?! We haven't gotten back the paper so can't say anything yet though. But it seems ever since Shunji took over, everyone is now sucking balls. People are dropping 10 marks dammit. EVERYONE DEPROVED. Screw you Shunji.
Physics CCT
I FUCKING MINUSED 10 Marks. 10 FUCKING MARKS NO TIME. WTF.
Thank God my father didn't scold me. He knew it was cos I had a lack of practice and stuff and time management was vital here COS I KNEW HOW TO DO THE QUESTIONS. But my Physics GPA is gonna go from 3.6 down to about 2.8 AGAIN. My GPA after PR1 before physics was 3.4+, now it's 3.3+ fuck.
At least it's an improvement from Pr1's 2.98
Sunday, May 10, 2009
I hate to say it but you're being such a bitch.
Friday, May 8, 2009
Chem on Tuesday
Math on Thursday
Physics on week 9
Chinese Gong han Test on week 10
English Social Advocacy project
RE.
I am so screwed.
Prepared for, none of the above.
I think chem i just need to brush up on seperation techniques and erm the seperation techniques thing.
Math practice a tad more.
Physics Practice a tad tad tad tad tad more.
Chinese screw it.
English and RE just do what i'm supposed to do lor.
I die.
Thursday, May 7, 2009
okay so today really sucked. like really. i got to school, i threw my bag on the floor. i went into the spare classroom and i just let my anger fly. threw chairs, broke some of them, dented the noticeboard, kicked the ball around threw it around, everything possible. my classmates in the project room were all staring but i was a complete mess. i hated myself and wanted it to end so badly, i couldn't think straight and i couldn't do anything else but let my emotions run wild. everything i put effort in all comes to waste namely polo and exams. last night i had enough and i went to sleep hoping it would be all better. but it wasn't. after i had thrown the stuff around and made many loud bangs for an alleged 10 minutes, i just sat there and i started crying. i hated myself and i hated my life. i also hated the fact that God made me so emotional and oversensitive, it's not a good thing at all. First period was history. I was quiet throughout the entire lesson, i couldn't speak, i couldn't myself to the words wouldn't come. mrs ang later asked what happened i just said i was tired cos i was "too quiet" today. then i talked to nick and that made me feel slightly better cos at least some of my emotions were let out. slowly but surely, my friends all great in their own way all came one by one to comfort and help me with what had happened. By the end of the day, I was living my life the way I should have been living it all along.
I won't say the emotions have totally passed but at least for now I'm stable. deep down there's still that tinge of regret and hatred for myself and what I do but other than that i'm more or less fine. so i say thank you to everyone who helped me today.
nick, marcus, ruiyi, brandon, chris, khai chong, keith, ryan teh, greg (though i was too pissed at the time).
All of you found out from me what had happened and i thank you for it, you pick me up when i'm down and you just keep walking with me. also i thank jordaan goh kok ping for helping me out last night with you-know-what.
I thank all of you.
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
Okay so I haven't blogged in awhile. Anyway turns out I'm not selected for RLP but I've pretty much gotten over it, i mean my ultimate goal is to one day make it into the national team and if i'm not captain anymore but i'm still able to do that then fine and well. i guess it's a shock to me 'cos the effort I put in into polo is a hell lot compared to the effort I put in for any other thing. I train 7 times a week and that's during the school term. Aye, I just hope i can meet my goals luh.
Second off, I think i'm becoming too buggish towards some so I better stop.
Third off, i think it's getting harder and harder to cope, there's so much going on and the pressure is super mounting. a gpa of 3.7 is something super difficult to get for me and though curently i've managed to pull it up from a 2.98 to 3.3+, it seems to be still a long way to go. But if I do extremely well for all the CTs coming up then it won't be so bad.
hmm i guess sometimes you put in so much effort but when it doesn't pay off it results in shit. and shit sucks. polo, studies, ------, all these things/people, tons of effort put into it but it all comes to zilch, and i hate it.
sorry if this seems so emo and stuff but i don't know man i've been really angsty lately and being nice to everyone is starting to become a challenge.
let's just hope this is over and done with soon.
Saturday, May 2, 2009
Hello.My name is Daryl Cheng Zichen the CHICKEN,And I think I should start blogging again,Or else, my wonderful best best bestfriend, Marissa Belle Kueek,Will come and murder me, and ban me from waterpoloAND I DON'T WANT THAT TO HAPPEN! Zomg! Cherry Cherry Boom Boom.I am so gay. Oh-My-God! *bimbo scream*EX-OH-EX-OH,The D to the A to the R to the Y to the L (:
